Going from this to that

Going From This:

                                                                           To that:

 In just 10 short months.


With this blog I'm starting I'm hoping it will reach many and be able to help many. The idea of starting this blog first came from a school assignment, But has already become so much more to me.
I'm hoping that by starting this blog, and by sharing my story.. It will not only help my personal healing, but so that I can hear stories of those who have gone through similar situations and so that I in turn can help them.

After this particular situation happened, I found that the only thing that helped me move forward with my life was by talking to other people who had been in my situation or one similar to it. I was very scared to open and up and share what had happened to me, but once I did? A whole new world opened up to me that I never knew existed. There is this whole community of people exactly like me. Making those connections and helping those bonds grow has been what has helped me the most.

Suicide affects so many people. Many more than most of us realize. Not just those who die by suicide, but everything and everyone that they leave behind. Because it is a touchy subject and something that is hard to understand.. I'm hoping that with this blog we will be able to come together. Break down the stereotypes, and the walls that surround us. I want to openly be able to talk about what I have gone through and not make people uncomfortable, I want to be able to reach out and help those who are scared to come forward like I was.

This is my story in a very vague sense. More detail to come in later posts.


Nov. 2010 Jasmine and Cory started dating
Dec. 2012 Cory Proposed to Jasmine (spur of the moment, vending machine ring)
Jan. 2011 Jasmine and Cory found out they were having a baby
July 2011 Cory Proposed to Jasmine (the real deal)
Aug. 2011 Jasmine and Cory got married
June 2012 Cory took his life.

My name is Jasmine.

'This is a story all about how my life got flip turned upside down, I'd like to take a minute, just sit right there, while I tell you all about how I became a young, single, widowed mother at 18.'

When I was 16 years old, I met the love the of my life. He was the first real and good thing that I had found for myself in a really long time. For the first time in a long time I was honestly happy with myself and where my life was going. I finally found meaning, and myself again. I felt like I didn't need anti-depressants just to help feel something...anything.

We started dating in November of 2010 and like any two love struck teenagers, we fell madly in love in a heartbeat. Being each others first real loves, we were each others everything. One thing led to another and in January we found out that we were going to have a baby. Like most teen parents, were weren't discouraged or upset. We were SO excited! Scared as hell, but we knew that as long as we had each other everything would be fine. So, we started preparing ourselves for the life of young parents.

He officially proposed in July when we were up in the mountains at his families cabin. Our favorite place to be.. Then on August 13th, 2011 we were married. Then on Sept. 30 our sweet baby girl Jenna Rebecca was born. Finally we were the family we had been waiting for!

Then, after some struggle and some heartache. Cory chose to take his life in June of 2012. It was the most horrific thing I have yet to experience in my young life. Our life and everything that led up to that point it such a sharp blur. Such a confusing mess, so difficult yet so wonderful.