I'm Sorry.

There are three reasons why I want to apologize and get this out.

The first set of people I want to apologize to are my readers. Even though there aren't many, I feel like it's important to keep consistent and I haven't been doing that. I've been going through quite a few things lately that are very difficult for me to sort through. So I'm working on it, and hope to be able to be more consistent.

The second set of people are those are currently being affected. Lately, with the things I have been going through, I have been shutting some people out of my life and with others I lash out. I want all of you to understand that it's really nothing you are saying or doing that is setting me off. It's me, and what  I'm struggling with. Please do not take it personally! I'm going through some difficult struggles that many of you may also be struggling with if you are in a similar situation (PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, and so forth).

The third person I want to apologize to is Cory. For many, many reasons. Some of which I can't share with you readers, or anyone. But, really? I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I didn't see this coming. I'm sorry that you felt like taking your own life was the only way out. I'm sorry that you felt so alone, and scared, and I shut you out. I'm sorry for not being the person you needed. I'm sorry that you can't be here to watch your sweet daughter grow. I'm sorry that this is how you'll be remembered.

I'm sorry.

I want my readers to know that all of the emotions that come with these situations is VERY difficult to sort through and VERY difficult to overcome. But! They are VERY NORMAL! Don't feel like you shouldn't be feeling these things, and don't feel like you're alone.

If you are going through some of these things, or feel like you are in danger of yourself, or others please call 1-800-273-8255. Yes, It is a hotline. But I have called them many many times, even just when I'm down. It helps so much!! Just try it!

I would also strongly suggest getting some professional help. Venting online, and to friends and family can only do so much. I'm not a professional, but if any of you are struggling and need to talk and don't feel comfortable calling a hotline.. You are more than welcome to message me, and I will do all that I can for you. Please realize that you aren't alone.